Hello.. Thank You & Good-bye..

When I first heard of you, my heart longed to become a part of you. I dreamed and dreamed until my dream came true.


So it became you and me – great tandem. I imparted everything I know to you and gave everything there is to give. In return, you gave me what I deserve and I was grateful and contented. I always showed up on time everyday, packed up with enthusiasm and excitement. Your warm welcome and endearing motivations gave me inspiration.

Days became months; months became years. We’ve been together for more than neither of us expected. You relied on me and I leaned on you. We both met many people along the way but most of them fled away and you counted me as one of the few survivors. Thanks for counting me in. It was a pleasure then.

You entrusted others’ responsibilities to me and you humbly demand most of my time. I submissively gave you all of me. I hope you realized how hard I tried to give you everything you needed. I didn’t know where I got it but somehow my patience those days were immeasurable. I sympathized of your loss and tried to be strong for you. I can still remember the looks of those pleading eyes, painfully tearful and begging me to cooperate. Of which, I realized, I selflessly did…

Time passed and I was more than happy to see you subtly recovering. The gleam in your eyes was contagious and I couldn’t help but smile myself. The heavy burdens we both were carrying somehow lightened. It was a relief to see you back and normal again.

So we moved on, still the same old you and me. You treated me like a genuine treasure – expensive and rare. That’s how you make me feel and as always, I appreciate it. I couldn’t ask for more.

You’ll be out my sight very soon but your presence and influences will always linger in me. One of these days, I will have to work things out for myself and I’m glad you’re always willing to stand by me. I thank you. It’s all I could say. I hope everything will work out fine between us, despite the approaching distance. It might be long before I’ll come back your way, or I may never come back at all, but I want you to know that you’ve always been an integral part of who I am right now.

Thank you for teaching me how to be humble and patient. Thanks for the gift of genuine friendship. Thank you for believing in me and for letting me face those tough challenges I didn’t suppose I could solve. Thank you for the never-ending support.

You thought me well enough to face the real world again. Now I am packed up with confidence, strength and wisdom, ready to tackle whatever trials there are along my path. I know I can stand stronger than I used to and I owe all these to you. Thanks for everything.

I will sorely miss my routine around your vicinity. I will always muse over those daily activities I did to help you grow. I know you’ll keep on surviving without me. Someday, you’ll find another me and I may find another you. But for sure, the moments will remain even though time may pass. I wish you all the luck and I hope that you can help more people and help them grow up, just like what you did to me and many others.

Adieu for now. But who knows, I might come back running into your loving arms again…

Back to Normal, My Friend?

My first impression of you did not fail,
You are the tough type but deep inside fragile;
You talk and talk, never minding what you've said,
You’re hungry of attention, and you got me disgusted.

You came to me, I ran away,
You smiled and smiled while fled away;
I was annoyed of your traits and bluffing,
You did a lot of gossips and talking.

You're Know-It-All, and you’ve got Me-First attitudes,
Most of your behaviors caused a lot of hatreds;
I backstabbed you but you never cared,
Were you aware or was I ignored?

I don't know how but it did happen,
We had to stick with each other then;
I remember how sincere you seemed,
While I rolled my eyeballs and feigned.

But one day, I found myself in distress,
You came around, just like you always did;
You pushed me to talk about it,
So I sighed, stared at you, but then started.
So I freed the things I’ve been keeping inside,
Vulnerable subjects I’ve been struggling to hide;
You may’ve never realized but you thought me how to confide,
For the first time, you listened while setting your apprehensions aside.

I loved watching you gaping at my every word,
I couldn’t tell whether you related to my stories or you’re bored;
But somehow you added light to our gloomy world,
I wonder if you really enjoyed or I got you tortured.

Hope you know that our listening ears made miracles,
We started sharing our happiness and downfalls;
I accepted your oddities, and I didn’t mocked at you again,
Time must have nourished and made our bonding genuine.

Yet lately, I’ve noticed how you’ve changed deliberately,
The rare submissive ways are slowly fading away;
Your smooth tongue seems to dance gracefully
With every mention of “I, me, & myself” melody.

So, is the old, vain you back again, my friend?
You must have missed wearing your favorite skin;
Well, go ahead and be who you really are,
I just hope when I look ahead, you have not gone that far.

I Have to Let You Go

If we never let go of the past, we can never appreciate the present, so as the future.

That’s why I had to forget how embarrassing my first communion was, when I sort of accidentally bit the hand of the priest and he glared at me. I heard some of my classmates, teachers and the choir laughed and I went off trembling. Then later on, I found myself crying. That experience taught me not to talk to a priest again. I was barely 9 years old then. I could still laugh at the thought, especially the look on the priest’s face… hehehe… I can still remember it, but for sure, I have gained the confidence to converse with a priest again.

That’s why I have to let go of the hope to retrieve my sweet memories with my peers during my high school days. I kept the memories but I’ve learned to let things happen naturally. My friends are on their own ways now, after all. A couple of them married, some go abroad, and others are so far away. I can’t afford the frustration of making us a whole again. If I hanged on to such hope, I wouldn’t have appreciated the company of my college colleagues.

That’s why I have to alter my job with a better one and let go of the memorable experiences attached to the previous one. Or else I wouldn’t be able exercise my skills in the field it suits best. And I wouldn’t have known more memorable moments are laid ahead of me.

That is the reason why we have to let go of our deceased loved ones. They said if there is come, there is go. Like the dear new things we possess, they will soon wear out. Their sentimental values will be kept but we won’t always see them as new as they used to be. And if we continue to keep them, no matter how rotten they are, we will never think of buying a better one. Like our loved ones, we have to let them go, so that we may get the chance to meet the others.

And that’s why I have to forget you. Coz if I continue to hope that you’ll come back, I may never meet my other half. And if you are my other half or if by some chance we are meant to be, you’ll return to me. If by that time, you are already being replaced, you have to move on with your life and not cling on our yesterdays.

Coz if we never let go of the past, we can never appreciate the present, so as the future.[Dedicated to my once dreamed man...]